Wednesday 29 February 2012

Goodbye February!

February 29, last day for the month of February.  Anu ano nga ba ang nangyari sa akin sa month na to?  oh well nakakilala ako ng mga bagong kaibigan, kakulitan at kakwentuhan.  Nag celebrate din ako ng ika 27 kong kaarawan.  Ayoko nga sana mag birthday kasi tatanda nanaman ako pero wala naman akong magagawa.  Pero ang pinaka higlight ng bwan na to para sa akin ay natanggap ako sa interview sa isa sa pinakamalaking company sa Subic.  Nakapasa ako bilang Admin Staff sa External Trade Team.

Di ko naman expected, pero masaya talaga ako.  Sana di na ako magpalit ng career.  Sana dito na ako magtagal.  Ayoko na rin sana ulit umalis ng Pilipinas para magwork abroad kaya sana maging ok talaga tong work ko ngayon.  Sana ok ang mga boss at sana ok ang mga tao sa paligid ko.  Di ako mahirap pakisamahan at di rin naman ako nahihirapan makisama sa iba.  Kaso syempre di naman maiiwasan na may makikilala ka na sa umpisa pa lang mabigat na talaga ang loob mo diba.   Pero positive ako na magiging ok ang mga ka work ko at sana ang workload kayanin ko din.

Magiging busy na ako.  Masaya ako na malungkot.  Masaya kasi di na ako mabobore sa bahay at syempre may income na ulit ako.  Malungkot kasi di ko na mapapanood yung mga inaabangan ko sa tv hehe.  Tsaka mababawasan na ang "me" time ko.  Pero excited rin ako :)

Mula ng inopen ko tong blog ko last week, nadagdagan ang page views ko.  May mga nagbabasa pa rin ng blog ko :)  natutuwa talaga ako.  Feeling ko kasi wala naman sense yung mga nilalagay ko pero may mga dumadalaw pa rin sa page ko.  Kaya hanggat nadadagdagan ang page views ko, di ako titigil magsulat ng kung anu anu na nasa isip ko. 

ok, wala nanaman ako sense.. hehe! tulog na ako! nytnyt :)

Friday 17 February 2012

Valentine's Resolution

Kung nung bagong taon nauso ang mga new years resolution, ako naman meron akong valentines resolution.  Ilalagay ko dito ang mga gusto kong baguhin o tanggalin in terms of my love life.  In terms of dating, being in a relationship and after a relationship.

1.  STRICTLY:  Never na ako makikipagdate sa lalaking may asawa/in a relationship.  Kasi di ko na deserve maging number two.  Deserve ko na maging priority ako at hindi yung tira tira lang.
2.  Magstastart lang ulit ako ng relationship kapag ready na talaga ako, hindi dahil sa nalulungkot lang ako. 
3.  Di na ko magmamadali.  Di dahil sa nag iisa ako kailangan ko madaliin lahat ng bagay.  Mas mabuti na yung mabagal basta sigurado kesa naman madali nga palpak nanaman.
4.  Di na ako makikipagkompetensya kung sino ang tama.  Bababaan ko na ang pride ko kung alam ko na mali ako. 
5.  Mas lalawakan ko ang isip ko at hahabaan ko na ang pasensya ko.
6.  Hindi ko na itatake for granted ang isang relasyon.  Di ko na aabusuhin ang relasyon na porket mas mahal nya ako kesa sa mahal ko sya.
7.  Iaappreciate ko na kahit super liit na bagay na ginagawa nya para sa kin.
8.  Rerespetuhin ko na kapag minsan gusto nya mapag isa.  Di na ako magiging makulit.
9.   Mag aaral na ako magluto.
10.  At ang huli, magtitira na ako ng pagmamahal para sa sarili ko.  Di ko ibibigay lahat lahat.  Kasi naniniwala ako na di mo kayang mahalin ang ibang tao kung hindi mo muna mahalin ang sarili mo.

Wednesday 15 February 2012

Ngipin

Marami na akong mga naging panaginip.  Sabi nila lahat daw tayo nananaginip araw araw ngunit ang iba sa ito ay di na natin natatandaan paggising natin.  Ilan sa aking mga panaginip ay may patungkol sa ahas, sa lalaking nakalabas ang paa habang nasa kabaong, at ang isa ay tungkol sa ngipin.  Ang panaginip tungkol sa ngipin ang di ko makakalimutan sa lahat lahat.

Anim na taon na ang nakakaraan ng nanaginip ako na natanggalan ako ng ngipin.  Sabi nila na pag natanggalan ka raw ng ngipin sa iyong panaginip, may mamamatay kang kamag anak na malapit sa'yo.  Aware ako sa pamahiin na yun pero dahil sa hindi naman ako mapamahiing tao, binalewala ko lang.  Sabi nila, pangontra daw sa panaginip na yun ay kumagat ka sa kahit anong kahoy o ikwento mo sa iba ang iyong panaginip o kaya'y ibulong mo ang iyong panaginip sa isang halaman.  Nawala na sa isip ko ang panaginip na yun pagkaraan ng mga ilang araw.  Ngunit sa di inaasahang pangyayari, makalipas siguro ang isang linggo, namatay sa isang krimen ang pinakamalapit kong pinsan.  Nagulat kaming lahat sa nangyari kasi napakabata pa nya.  Nagkausap pa nga kami ng gabi na yun bago nangyari ang pagdukot sa kanya.  Habang ina absorb ang lahat sa bilis ng mga pangyayari, habang tulala sa isang tabi sa gulat matapos malaman ang balita, dun ko naalala ang aking panaginip tungkol sa ngipin.  Sinabi ko sa mama ko yun pagkatapos kong maalala, pero sabi ni mama, may reason daw ang Diyos kung bakit nya kinuha ang pinsan ko.  Pero di ko maalis sa isip ko na tanungin, kung hindi ko kaya binalewala yung panaginip kong yun, kung kumagat kaya ako sa kahoy o kaya'y kwinento ko agad sa mama ko, ma sasave kaya ang buhay ng pinsan ko?  May pagkakataon kaya na sana ay buhay pa sya ngayon?

Nung nasa abroad naman ako, yung ka roommate ko nanaginip sya na nalagasan sya ng ngipin.  Sabi nya wala naman daw masama kung maniniwala.  Kaya ang ginawa nya ibinulong nya sa isang halaman sa may laundry area ng dormitory ang kanyang panaginip.  At kinabukasan, pagtingin namin sa halaman na yun, lantang lanta na at tuyot na tuyot na samantalang kahapon lang ay ang berdeng berde ito at diniligan pa nga nya.  Ok naman daw ang pamliya nya hanggang sa huli naming pag uusap ng mga panahon na iyon.  Walang nagkasakit, wala ring namatay.

Kagabi, nanaginip nanaman ako.  Natanggalan nanaman ako ng ngipin. Parang totoo, kasama ko pa nga kapatid ko nun nung nalagasan ako ng ngipin.  Sa panaginip ko, tinanong ko pa si mama kung bukas si Dra. Mabeza na family dentist namin.  Sabi ni mama oo bukas yun kasi nga pagagawaan ko ng paraan yung part na nalagasan ko ng ngipin kasi sa may bandang harap.  Nung magising ako at nakapag muni muni dun ko naalala ang aking panaginip.  Kumagat ako sa kahoy ng aking kama.  Ibinulong ko pa ito sa isang halaman sa aming terrace.  Gusto ko man ito ikwento, walang tao sa amin kundi ako lang.  Pero tinext ko si mama tungkol sa aking panaginip.  Natatakot ako.  Gusto ko man balewalain, kaso ayoko na maulit yung nangyari dati.  Nagdasal na lang ako na sana walang mangyaring masama sa mga mahal ko sa buhay. 

Saturday 11 February 2012

Balentayms

Bwan ng Pebrero, bwan ng mga puso.  Ito ang bwan na ang lahat ng mga inlove/in a relationship/mga married ay mabaliw baliw na kakaisip ng unique na  ireregalo sa mga special someone nila.  Ang iba ay bumili ng mga ibat't ibang hugis ng lobo, mga tsokolateng iba't ibang brand at ang walang kamatayng mga rosas na iba't ibang kulay.  Movie dates, dinner date,  date sa pak, manood ng fireworks ay ilan lamang sa mga ginagawa ng mga mag jojowa kapag balentayms day.  Pero minsan napapaisip ako, hindi kaya overrated na din ang balentayms?

Wala man akong date ngayong balentayms dahil bokya, zero or loveless ako ngayon.   Sa unang pagkakataon, sasalabungin ko ang balentayms ng mag isa, may mga naisip ako na gawin para hindi ako makapag emo ngayong araw ng mga puso.

1.  Maglinis ng bahay.  Maglampaso ng sahig.  I vacuum ang rug at magpalit ng bedsheet.
2.  Magtupi ng mga panty at dapat by color na nakaayos sa drawer.  Ipag pare pareho ang mga medyas na nakakalat lang sa kabilang drawer.
3.  Maglinis ng kuko.  Magtanggal ng ingrown at ibabad sa mertayolet ang mga kuko na na murder.  Pintahan ng kulay pula ang mga kuko.
4.  Magbasa.  Hindi magasin kundi isang makabuluhang libro o nobela.
5.  Magpictorial ng sarili.  I pout ang lips.  Magpose ala lookbook model.  Magdress at mag high heels sa kwarto.
6.  Humarap sa salamin.  Suklayin ang buhok ng isang daang beses.
7.  Pagkatapos suklayin, bilangin ang mga ito.
8.  Mag movie marathon.  Bawal ang mga love story na pelikula.  Dapat patayan, barilan, katatakutan o katatawanan.
9.  Bundatin ang sarili sa mangga at bagoong.
10.  Maglaro ng Sims 3.
11.  Makinig sa mga kanta ni Kelly Clarkson at itodo ang volume ng ipod hanggang sa dumugo ang tenga.
12.  Pag aralan ang dance step ng kahit isang kanta ni Lady Gaga sa youtube.
13.  Magbilang ng mga natitirang cotton buds sa medicine cabinet.
14.  Kuskusin ang buong katawan ng calamansi at magbabad sa banyo ng isang oras.

Pagkatapos gawin ang lahat ng nasa itaas,  imposible naman na di ka pa pagod.  At dahil sa pagod na yan, makakatulog ka agad ng mahimbing at di ka na makakapag emote pa.

Wednesday 8 February 2012

Sentiments

This has been the downiest part of my life.  I had been feeling terrible because of the unpleasant things that happened to me.  I chose to let it all go, I chose not to fight.  I chose to be silent and I pretend to be numb.  I act to smile and laugh about the single joke that I heard but I know I am fooling myself.  I know I am not ok.  And the sad thing is, I do not know how to help myself.

There are people who knew the deeper me.   Who saw me crying in pain and asking them what I did wrong and how to fix it.  God has been good to me.  Even though there are things that didn't work out well in my life, He blessed me with wonderful friends and loving family.  He never failed to make me feel that He is still there guiding and loving me.  So I wanna give thanks to the people who never get tired to listen to my numerous sentiments.

Jomer is one of the longest friend I have.  We used to be together but being friends worked better for the both of us.  He saw the best and worst in me.  For unknown reason, he always sense it whenever I have a problem.  It is like he has a connection in my mind and in my heart.  Never failed to make me smile in every single conversation we had.  He is just like my walking diary.  He already knew whats going on even before I tell him.  I can feel that he is hurt if I am hurt.  Even if he is away,  I know he is always there for me.

Franco has been a good friend to me since college.  We used to be together too for a while but we figured out that it won't work out.  But I am thankful that inspite that heartache, we made a beautiful friendship.  Years passed by but we still keep in touch.  He never put me down.  Never blame me for my stupid actions.  He was the "rebelde" type before but he changed a lot now.  I am so proud of him on what he is right now.

Joel is a new good friend.  Magaan ang loob ko sa taong ito.  I know I can open up my life to him anytime without the fear of judging me.  Never failed to motivate me about moving on, accepting things and gave me advices on how to be a better me. He once told me that I should put myself down.  I need to gain that self confidence that I lost for quite sometime.  

Rein, Ivy and Vhon.  They are the closest friend I had when I was in abroad.  Always there when I needed someone to talk to.  They always tell me that it is so easy to tell if I am not ok with just looking in my eyes.  They never get tired of my sentiments.  I missed laughing with these wonderful people.  Drinking non stop and stay outs during working days.

Billy - he was the one who was there when Ivy and Rein went back to Philippines.  We became good friends since then.   We always hang out and watch movies together.  Going to Tom's world and pretend that we are kids again.  He never left me alone.  He was always there for me until I have to return to the Philippines.

Morning Gurls.  Tinjoy, Kite, Tin and April.  We might lost track but whenever we see each toher online we never failed to ask hows everything.  I wanna thank them for a great friendship that didn't change after all these years.  I missed hanging out with them and I hope that we still can do it someday just like the good old days.

My life has been a rollercoaster ride.  Sabi nila I should write it daw to Maalaala Mo Kaya para ma publish yung story ko pero of course I won't do that.  Without these people, matagal na siguro akong nag surrender.  There were people who abused me. put me down, cheated on me but still, mas marami pa rin ang nagmamahal sa akin and they are the reason why I am still fighting and moving on.


 


Love Quotes

Ilan ito sa mga favorite quotes ko.  Para sa mga inlove, mga singles, mga bitter at mga hoping.  Happy Valentines Day :)



Love means to believe someone in every heart beat, to find someone in every thought, to see someone with closed eyes and to miss someone without any reason.

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

If we allow our relationship to be threatened by someone who can offer us something better, then all of us would be miserable because there could always be better partners than the ones we have now. It eventually becomes a matter of contentment. Let us try to make our relationship work even if at times we lose our interest in it.. being blessed is not always about finding someone new to love but being able to continue to love someone we've always had.


You don't have to commit yourself when you're inlove with someone. sometimes you just have to be satisfied wiht whatever connection you have with that special one.

No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater...The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.


It will always be worth it, to be with someone who knows your worth.

for a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. you want it to be with someone you can't get out of  your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. a kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. you can't cheat your first kiss. trust me, you don't want to. cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything


At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be... 

It's difficult to wait for someone..
And its more difficult to forget someone..
But the most difficult thing is to decide whether to wait or forget

Today I cried not because I missed you, nor because I longed for you but because I finally realized I'll be just fine without you...

Sometimes, it takes a great good fall to know where you really stand.

Just because you know what I feel, doesn't mean you understand how it feels.

it's funny to pretend unhurt when you're bleeding, to pretend to be strong when you're weak, to say go away when you mean 'please stay'.. and to say ' i'm over you' but in reality you're crying in pain. 

Why does Cupid never grow up?
---coz it symbolizes that l♥ve never gets old.

And why does he throw arrows to the heart???
---to remind us that true l♥ve hurts...

Sometimes I wonder why sunset is more colorful than sunrise.
I guess it's an irony of life.
Sometimes, better things could really happen in saying goodbye.

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it’s clear that you don’t feel the same way for me… The problem is that as much as I can’t force you to love me, I can’t force myself either to stop loving you.

Stop chasing the one who's running from you and look behind you to see who's chasing you.

One's trash is another one's treasure
Same thing with...
One's misery is another one's happiness
So if you feel that you're a trash to someone you love..
Remember that you're a treasure to someone that is more deserving than the one who crumpled you..

In a relationship, honesty & trust must exist. If they don’t, there’s no point of loving. So if you can’t afford to be honest, stay single.

its better to feel the enjoyment of being not committed, rather than suffer in a relationship being cheated.

Maybe sometimes you have to stop waiting for someone to come along and fix what's wrong. Maybe you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize that no one else has the answer. Maybe sometimes you just have to be your own hero.

In a crowd a man cracked a joke. the people laughed hard. after a moment he cracked the same joke again & a little less people laughed this time. he cracked the same joke again & very few laughed this time. when there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled & said, " when you can't laugh on the same joke again & again then why do you keep crying over the same thing over & over again.

I don’t know what I feel, I know I should be sad but I’m not. I know I must be crying right now but I can’t. I’m not sad. I’m not happy. I’m not angry and I’m not okay. Is this what they call emptiness?

I don’t know why I won’t learn that my Romeo isn’t ready to die for me, that my prince charming isn’t interested to know who owns the other half of my glass shoes, that my Jack would just leave me dying in the sunken ship, that my Peter Pan wont be with me forever and that the person I gave my heart to will never realize that there’s a happily ever after that can be found in me.

I don't like falling inlove, know why, because everytime I do... I cry, I suffer, I become weak... because I don't just give love... I also offer my life...
 
If you're hurt, concentrate on what's left... not on what's lost.
.... will update this topic soon :)

Monday 6 February 2012

Hortaleza

Read some posts on Girltalk forum.. yes I am a Girltalker for more than a decade now :) and read that HBC's Hortaleza Profeesional's Hair Treatment are good.  So I went to HBC and bought sachets of their Hair Spa treatment and Keratin Hot Oil Treatment. 


I followed the instructions read at the back of the sachet, and since I don't have a steamer I skipped step no. 4

1.  Shampoo hair and rinse thoroughly.
2.  Apply Hortaleza Professional Treatment onto hair.
3.  Cover hair with shower/plastic cap and leave on hair for about 15-20 minutes.
4.  For best result, process hair under a steamer for 15 minutes.
5.  Rinse thoroughly.  No need to shampoo hair.

Actually, instead of leaving it for 20 minutes,  I left in on my hair for an hour.  The SA told me na its ok lang daw if medyo mas matagal.  So here's the result..


My hair was so dull and unhealthy before using it.  I forgot to take a picture though.  But after using this product,  my hair became soft and shiny.  I will definitely use it once a week.